A week ago I told you that I had let my husband Buck back into the apartment. After nearly a week of him staying here, I finally kicked him out permanently on Saturday. He had started moving his stuff out on Friday, but he messaged me that night asking if he could stay here because he had nowhere to go. I agreed because as angry as I am with him, I don’t want anyone to be out on the street. Damn my moral convictions and good-hearted nature.
He bought a new cell phone a few weeks ago and his old cell phone was left here, so I had hidden it for later use. I was able to hack into it and found out everything and anything I could ever want to know about his evil doings. That is when I originally kicked him out on the 17th. Then on Saturday I was looking at it again and found text messages between him and the little meth-head whore mistress that he had been seeing. He had promised her that when he got his school refund check he would buy her a new laptop, get her internet installed, a day of shopping, and an ounce of weed. Another text said that he had to take me to lunch to get $50 from me (I thought it was for gas, food, etc.) and he was bringing it over to her. MOTHERFUCKER! He was taking my hard-earned money and giving it to this whore, and no telling how many other people, just so they would beat his ass and make him eat shit and piss and perform oral on them.
I found out so many other things too. Evidently he has done things behind my back ever since we moved here. He’s also been meeting up with men that he finds through Craigslist ads and other gay hookup and bondage sites. What really pissed me off is when I saw that he had been getting fucked in the ass. I was pissed off because for two years he’s been telling me that I couldn’t fuck him with my strap-on because of his hemorrhoids and he just couldn’t have anything in his ass anymore. MOTHERFUCKING LIAR!
There are so many things wrong with what he was doing. The first is that he had no respect for me and my safety. He not only was having unprotected sex with multiple people (as in dozens or more), but he was letting them into our home when I wasn’t here. He even had ads posted on Craigslist advertising that he wanted men to come over and fuck him and the door would be unlocked and he would be blindfolded and ready. OMFG! What if I had come home early? What if one of these men had shown up when I was here alone? I don’t even feel safe in my home anymore. I never know when some psycho is going to see his pictures (with name and address) online and just show up at my door. Or worse yet, what if someone I know finds his disgusting pictures online.
I know this is just one big ugly angry rant, but that’s what I need now. I thought that I would never hate someone as much as I hate my first husband who was a total liar and scam artist. I was wrong. I hate Buck now more than I’ve ever hated anyone. He is not only a liar and a cheater, but he is also a depraved disgusting human being who cares about no one but himself. I would wish for something horrible to happen to him, but I think that’s going to happen no matter what. Everything he does moves him closer to a horrible lonely death.
Since I can’t kill him, I decided to destroy him in other ways. So far I have deleted most of his online sex/dating/hookup profiles and his “secret” email accounts. Lets call it, a little push in the right direction. Also, since he even lied to his mother about why we are splitting up, I told her the truth. He told her it was NOT because he had been unfaithful. I let her know that was far from the truth. It’s a start I guess.
I can’t write about everything he’s done in one post, so I’m going to stop here for now. Thanks for reading.