Life is too short not to smile. That’s what I’ve learned in my forty years. Even when you don’t necessarily feel like smiling, do it anyway. Even though tears may be welling up, about to fall, just smile and think about all the good things in your life. I promise you, that things are probably never as bad as you think, and you CAN make it though this…whatever your “this” may be.
People who meet me usually think that I’m always cheerful and happy. Of course I’m not though. Not always. But what they don’t know is that even when I’m smiling, I could be depressed, or lonely, or stressed beyond belief. It never lasts though. Smiling is my coping mechanism. It helps me remember that things aren’t really as bad as my mind wants me to think they are.
When the snow is falling, and I just can’t sleep because of crazy hormonal imbalances, and I just don’t feel like smiling, I find some reason to smile anyway. Usually, the catalyst is music, as you may have guessed. When I have insomnia and am exhausted and have no desire to write anything, I go to YouTube and start wandering around, going down the rabbit hole. Sometimes I get sucked into the usual stupid videos, but now and then I find something inspiring.
Tonight I saw a post on Facebook that was a link to an artist named Alex Boyé doing a cover of Bruno Mars’ “Uptown Funk.” Now you all know I love me some Bruno, so I had to watch. Alex Boyé’s versions of popular songs sucked me in, made me smile, and gave me the inspiration and motivation that I needed. Reading about his past and path to where he is now also inspired me. Actually what really got me, and yes, made me tear up a bit, was the video of him becoming an American citizen. I guess I’m just a mushy sentimental romantic nerd.
Speaking of being a mushy sentimental romantic nerd…things are going great with Buck. I guess that’s what originally got me thinking about smiling. Not only does he make me smile constantly, I just love seeing him smile. I especially like making him smile. Have I mentioned his dimples? Well, they’re awesome. 🙂
Even if I weren’t with Buck, I know I’d still have a reason to smile everyday because I have family and friends who love me. I’m grateful that I am with him though, because it gives me that extra reason to smile. Even when I don’t really feel good, or am stressed out, or just am in a blah mood. He’s there to remind me that it’s never too late to find the person (again) who can light up your life and your mind and your heart.
I’m truly blessed, and have been all my life. I’ve known, and dated, some really amazing people. Broken hearts and bruised egos aside, I still care about many of them, and wish them nothing but the best. It’s been a long crazy journey, with a ten-year intermission, but I’m finally where I belong and with the right person.
So there it is. Hot damn.
Peace, love, & happiness.