Before my heart stops racing and before I go on a binge breaking things…
This morning I was to meet Harry for breakfast at the local Huddle House. We met. Now I’m at work and ready to spit nails into someone’s tires.
When I got there he was already sitting in the booth. I sat down, we ordered, and he just stared at me and smiled. I told him about our tenants moving out, and about the possible buyer on the house. When I mentioned that I just hate not knowing how long I’ll be here and what is going on, he had kind of a weird guilty look on his face. I knew something was up.
Then he said, “There’s something that I wanted to talk to you about. I should have told you last week, but I couldn’t.” Great. What now? Then he went on to tell me that his friends had talked him into giving it another shot with his wife, and he had moved, as in really moved, back in with his wife, but he really likes me and wants to keep seeing me. WHAT THE HELL?
This is EXACTLY what I told him I didn’t want to happen. I told him in the beginning that I didn’t want to start seeing him and then have him turn around and decide he was going back with his wife or ex-girlfriend.
I feel like an idiot. I saw the red flags, and I chose to ignore them.
Any way, I told him that I refused to be the “other woman.” If he wanted to try to work things out with his wife, then he should do so and give it his all…with no girlfriends on the side. I even told him that I hoped things worked out for them.
All he could say was that he was sorry.
Sorry my ass. I didn’t even eat my breakfast. My appetite was gone. I brought it back for my sister to eat instead. From my pain, comes her gain.
I’m trying to remain calm about all this, because I didn’t even really have anything vested into the relationship yet, but it still pisses me off. Deep breaths and happy thoughts….
On the bright side, now I have something to write about. And…I no longer have evil thoughts about how I should stick around here. I still owe you an explanation on why I probably shouldn’t move back to New Orleans, but I’ll post that in a separate post, soon. (Just so you know, I would really, really like to move back to NOLA.)