Why is it that when I change my relationship status on Facebook to “in a relationship with” someone, within a week I have to change it back to single? Oh, right, I think I forgot to mention that I told LL Cool Bean Monday night that I didn’t think it was a good idea for him to move in. I wasn’t trying to hurt his feelings, but things were just moving too fast and I needed to slow it down. I was also feeling a bit trapped. With his following me around like a puppy and being here 24/7 except for when he was at work, and even then I was asleep, so I felt like I had no alone time at all.
As badly as I want to find someone special to be with, I don’t want to settle, just be with someone so that I can avoid boredom, or to fill the void in my sex life. I want “twoo lub” and I’m not going to accept anything less. LL is a great guy, but there are things about him, things that he does and doesn’t do, that I just cannot deal with. Therefore, he had to go.
Now it’s time to move on, but I’m still not sure I’m ready to move on. I’m still devising a plan of action for my romantic life, and in the mean time I plan on focusing on work and writing. Those are the two things that have suffered the most since I started all this dating crap. Don’t misunderstand. I still enjoy meeting people, going out and having a good time, even having a good romp in the hay if I am attracted to the person enough. Over all though, I think I’m experiencing a polar shift when it comes to dating and relationships. I no longer want the same things, or find the same things important as I did years or even months ago. My change in relationship status with Manwhore probably has something to do with that.
Manwhore’s parade continues. He had a new one over last night, Whore #12. I didn’t get to see her. Don’t really care to see her either. It doesn’t matter what she looks like. She’ll be just a brief memory for him soon enough. He did tell me that she is just recently separated from her husband of 25 years and she said she’s never had sex with anyone other than her soon to be ex-husband. Wow. I can’t imagine that, but I think it’s great. I also feel bad for her that her first experience may be with Manwhore. He’s more than likely not going to want to keep seeing her. I think he’s more into having fuck buddies than into finding a long-term relationship now. He says he wants to meet the “one” but I doubt that’s going to happen if he keeps fucking almost every woman he goes out with on the first date. I know I have very little room to talk, but at least I try to just give one person at a time a chance before moving on to the next.
So here I am single again. Let’s hope it leads to lots more good stories for me to tell you. 🙂