Archive | April 2011

Beware the Snake Comes

Is it strange that I suddenly have the urge to want to see Skaterboi have sex with another woman?  I think I’m losing my mind, what’s left of it.

I’ve also been thinking of changing Skaterboi’s alias to Asshole instead.  He’s actually an ex-skateboader, but he still keeps a skateboard in the back of his truck.  The truck is covered in some kind of punk band stickers, one of which has something about “Fuckin'” on it.  That’s the main reason I haven’t introduced him to my parents yet.  He also has continued to verbally harass me.  Abuse is too strong of a word in this case.  His comments are purely sarcastic and demeaning and hurtful.  The deliberations continue.

Please pray for me to have patience. 🙂

Beware the Snake

I wish I could channel all of Skaterboi’s hostility, anger, and aggressiveness into something useful.  Such as him coming in and laying one of those hard big kisses on me.  Taking me to the bed and ravishing me, but in a good “making love” sort of way.  Certainly not just using me as a blow-up doll to cum all over.

Somewhere, every day, there is an evil whore brewing her poison.  Hee hee hee (low long punctuated hees).  (That’s my evil laugh.  I know.  It needs work.)

P.S.  I had a dream about a snake last night.  I saw it like a video of the snake slithering in our front yard in the middle of the grass.  I felt like I was standing on the deck looking down on it.  I woke up with a gasp of fear.  I found several meanings of seeing a snake in dreams, but none were good.  They were all quite ominous meanings.  Things that make you go, hmmm. 🙂

I have…

I got this list from TheRealSharon’s Blog and she got it from Stacey.  Now I’m passing it along and filling in the answers for myself.  Thanks girls! 🙂

If there’s an X beside the item listed, then it’s something that applies to me, if not, then it doesn’t.

[X]       I have been on some sort of team.
[   ]       I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[X]       I have been to Canada.
[X]       I have watched cartoons for hours.
[X]       I have tripped UP the stairs.
[   ]       I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[   ]       I have been snowboarding/skiing.
[X]       I have played ping-pong.
[X]       I swam in the ocean.
[   ]       I have been on a whale watch.
[X]       I have seen fireworks.
[X]       I have seen a shooting star.
[X]       I have seen a meteor shower.
[   ]       I have almost drowned.
[X]       I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
[X]       I have listened to one cd over & over & over again.
[X]       I have had stitches.
[   ]       I have had frostbite.
[   ]       I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[X]       I have stayed up till 2 doing homework/projects.
[   ]       I currently have a job.
[X]       I have been ice skating.
[X]       I have been rollerblading.
[X]       I have fallen flat on my face.
[X]       I have tripped over my own two feet.
[X]       I have been in a fist fight.
[X]       I have played video games for more than 3 hours straight.
[   ]       I have watched The Power Rangers
[X]       I do/HAVE attended Church regularly.
[X]       I have played truth or dare.
[X]       I’ve called someone stupid. And meant it.
[X]       I‘ve been in a verbal argument.
[X]       I’ve cried in school.
[   ]       I’ve played basketball on a team.
[   ]       I’ve played softball on a team.
[   ]       I’ve played baseball on a team.
[   ]       I’ve played football on a team.
[   ]       I’ve played soccer on a team.
[   ]       I’ve done cheerleading.
[   ]       I’ve swam on a team.
[   ]       I’ve been on a track or cross-country team.
[X]       I’ve been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[   ]       I’ve thrown up going on a ride at an amusement park.
[   ]       I’ve climbed a rock wall.
[X]       I’ve lost more than $20.
[X]       I’ve called myself an idiot.
[X]       I’ve called someone else an idiot.
[X]       I’ve cried myself to sleep.
[X]       I’ve had (or have) pets.
[   ]       I’ve owned a Spice Girls cd.
[X]       I’ve owned a Britney Spears cd.
[   ]       I’ve owned an N*Sync cd.
[   ]       I’ve owned a Backstreet Boys cd.
[   ]       I’ve mooned someone.
[X]       I’ve swore at someone.
[X]       I’ve been in the newspaper.
[   ]       I’ve been on TV.
[   ]       I’ve been to Hawaii.
[X]       I’ve eaten sushi.
[   ]       I’ve been on the other side of a waterfall
[X]       I’ve watched all the Lord of the Rings movies.
[X]       I’ve watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[   ]       I’ve watched all the Rocky movies.
[X]       I’ve watched the 3 Stooges at least once
[X]       I’ve watched “Newlyweds” Nick & Jessica.
[X]       I’ve watched Looney Tunes.
[   ]       I’ve been stuffed into a locker.
[X]       I’ve been called a geek.
[X]       I’ve studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
[X]       I’ve not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[   ]       I’ve hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[   ]       I’ve hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[X]       I’ve met a celebrity/music artist.
[X]       I’ve written poetry.
[X]       I’ve been arrested.
[X]       I’ve been attracted to someone much older than me.
[X]       I’ve been tickled till I’ve peed.
[   ]       I’ve tickled someone else until they cried.
[X]       I’ve had/have siblings.
[X]       I’ve been to a rock concert.
[X]       I’ve listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[X]       I’ve been in a play.
[   ]       I’ve been picked last in gym class.
[   ]       I’ve been picked first in gym class.
[X]       I’ve been picked in that middle-range in gym class.
[X]       I’ve cried in front of my friends.
[   ]       I’ve read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
[   ]       I’ve played Halo 2.
[   ]       I’ve freaked out over a sports game.
[   ]       I’ve been to Alaska.
[   ]       I’ve been to China.
[   ]       I’ve been to Japan.
[X]       I’ve had a fight with someone over AIM/ MSN/ Yahoo Messenger
[X]       I’ve had a fight with someone face to face
[X]       I’ve had serious conversations on any IM.
[X]       I’ve forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[X]       I’ve been forgiven.
[X]       I’ve screamed at a scary movie
[X]       I’ve cried at a chick flick
[X]       I’ve watched action movies.
[X]       I’ve screamed at the top of my lungs.
[   ]       I’ve been to a rap concert.
[   ]       I’ve been to a hip hop concert.
[X]       I’ve lived in more than 2 houses.
[X]       I’ve been to other states.
[X]       I’ve been homesick.
[X]       I’ve thrown up.
[   ]       I’ve puked on someone.
[X]       I’ve been horseback riding.
[X]       I’ve spoken my mind in public.
[X]       I’ve proved someone wrong.
[X]       I’ve been proven wrong by someone.
[X]       I’ve broken a leg/foot.
[   ]       Broken an arm, wrist, hand, finger, or knuckle.
[X]       I’ve fallen off a swing.
[X]       I’ve swung on a swing for more than 30 minutes straight.
[X]       I’ve come close to dying.
[X]       Someone close to me has died.
[   ]       I’ve wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.
[   ]       I’ve done modeling or done a beauty pageant
[X]       I’ve taken something/someone for granted.

Love & Sex Q&A #92

Love & Sex92

Who initiates sex more often, you or your partner?  When one of you feels like having sex, how does he or she let the other know?

When I’m in a relationship where I’m happy and happily horny, I initiate sex just as often, if not more often, than my partner.  When I feel like having sex I usually either just tell my partner that I’m horny, or I make it more than obvious in some other way that I’m in the mood.

Most of my partners that initiated sex usually did the traditional kissing then groping thing to let me know they wanted sex.  Occasionally, a brave soul would just come right out with it and say they wanted to fuck.  Some women might find that rude or offensive, but I find it refreshing.  Being told truthfully what a person wants is a turn on to me.  I don’t like going through all the usual bullshit just to get laid.  Don’t misunderstand.  I love flirting, but that’s not always necessary when it comes to sex.  It helps, but I’ve had sex many times when there was absolutely no flirting involved.

For example, I’m in a bar and I see my target chosen one.  I’m attracted to him and I know he’s attracted to me because he has looked at me too.  Why go through all that trouble of small-talk and flirtatious crap when I could just as easily say, “let’s go fuck.”  I know it’s what we both want, so why drag the whole thing out?  Why not just get right down to the business of getting busy?  Because if I don’t go through all of that crap, I’m labeled a slut.  So what?!  Call me what you may, just stay out of my way.  I’m a SLUT.  Denying that fact is futile.  I am a “woman with the morals of a man,” promiscuous, loose, and a cheater.

Ideally, how would you like your partner to go about initiating sex?

It depends on my mood.  Sometimes I like for men to just come right out with it.  Especially with men that I know are just going to be a booty buddy or one-nighter.  There are other times though, when I like to be romanced and courted.  Sometimes, even I like a little foreplay.  Heaven forbid if Skaterboi ever tried using foreplay to get me going.  The entire planet might explode.

Here is one definite way not to initiate sex with me.

I Want It All

I want everything.  I want a man at home that loves me, who will massage my body when it aches, who will make me laugh and smile, who will turn me on, who will satisfy my sexual desires, who will be kind to me, and who will help me relieve stress, not add to it.  Who will be that man?  Can any one man be that man?

That is not all I want though.  I want to be able to go and do as I please when I please.  I want independence.  I do not want to have to answer to anyone, check in with anyone, or explain myself to anyone.

I want to be myself, to be creative, to help people, and to do great things with my life.  I do not want to look back on my life with regret for not taking chances and not taking advantage of opportunities.

I want to see this fantastic world and all of its people.  I do not want to feel caged in and unable to explore.

I want so many things and I will have them.

I want it all.