Well, I tried, sort of. I tried talking to Skaterboi about the issues I’m having, but he had to leave and said we’d talk more when he got back. This happened yesterday by the way. Once he got back last night he just went and got on the couch and started watching tv. I waited patiently thinking that he just needed time to gather his thoughts. They must have never gathered. After taking enough pills to hopefully knock me into a blissful sleep I went to the bedroom. As I lay there with a million things running through my mind I finally drifted off to sleep. At 2:30 a.m. I awoke to Skaterboi getting into the bed with me. He had fallen asleep on the couch. I tried to just go back to sleep, but he had other plans.
When I’m in the mood for sex, I don’t mind being woken up for it, but when I’ve been suffering from horrible insomnia like I have lately, I’d rather just sleep when I can. He started cuddling up to me, which was nice. I like cuddling. Then he wanted more. He asked if I wanted it up my ass. What kind of opener is that for sex? I’ve already told him I don’t want anal and he’s not going to get it. He kept on asking about that and then started calling me “butthead” and then remarking that I “wear more clothes to bed than Luke Skywalker in Star Wars III.” Who’s waving their geek freak flag now jackass? It ended with me rolling over facing away from him and going back to sleep, but not after having to get up and have a cigarette and some tea to calm my nerves. Besides my tummy troubles, I’ve been having chest pains a lot lately and I know it’s stress related. Even this damn sleepy time tea isn’t helping calm my nerves. Damn you cute little sleepy time bear!
Anyway, insulting me and calling me names is NOT a turn on. At this point I don’t know what to do. He didn’t say a word about it all day today. Tomorrow I plan on getting all of my homework done so that I can go up to the Preacher’s house on Friday. I may stay there all week. I don’t care if they don’t have internet or cable TV. I’ll take some DVDs and my laptop though. I wish I could just get in my car and go on a mini-vacation, but that’s not possible right now. 😦